These days I've been a little hormonal. I suppose it's pregnancy. For those of you who don't know, we found out a couple of weeks ago that we are expecting a baby boy this time. I am not disappointed, I am thankful that he is healthy, and looking forward to experiencing life with a little boy. But, I really thought we were having another girl. Like I said I'm not disappointed, I think it's more that I'm just getting emotional over Bella growing up. Granted, she's only 2, it's not like she's about to get married, but I just feel like it's going too fast. And part of me was hopeful that I would get to experience another baby girl all over again. After we found out this baby was a boy, I was looking in Bella's closet at some of her old clothes. I couldn't help but tear up a little at the thought of Bella in them. It doesn't seem that long ago that she was wearing them, and now I'm sure most of them wouldn't even fit over her head. Here is a pic of my baby girl in one of my favorites...
I am really excited about meeting my little boy in 4 months, and know he will change my life in ways I can only imagine now. I also know that your love doesn't divide when a new child comes, it multiplies. I'm just being a hormonal pregnant mama and feeling a little sappy over the past 2 years, 3 months and 4 days with my little girl. I wish time didn't go so fast sometimes.
Maybe you've heard this song before, but I just wanted to add this video. We've been doing floors in our house the past few weeks, and haven't had a TV in the living room, so we've been listening to a lot of radio. I've heard this song more than a few times over the past few weeks, and it pretty much sums up what I've been feeling lately... Enjoy.
Claire! I was already getting misty reading your post, and then that song just did me in. I sat there, bawling like a baby. And I'm not even pregnant! :)
I understand how you feel. Pregnancy obviously brings many emotions along with it, but when you add the feelings you experience about adding a second child, making your first a big sibling, the fact that this one turned out to be a boy and not the girl you were sure he was, and how grown up Bella is getting, it's a whole new emotional ballgame. I know you aren't disappointed about having a son. When I was pregnant with Alex, I thought he was going to be a girl. And after months of daydreaming about having a daughter, to find out it was another son was...a little shocking. And now he's my little baby boy who I can't imagine life without and who I love just as much as his big brother (you're right- a mommy's love does multiply). Letting go of a dream, even a daydream, is hard. You were sure you were having another girl, probably even thinking of names, imagining what she'd look like, and envisioning her in Bella's hand me downs. And now that's gone, and I think it's perfectly understandable and acceptable that you would need time to adjust to that. And if you haven't already, then you will. That little boy will bring you so much happiness. I should know. :) Plus, just think of all of the cute little baby boy clothes you can buy now AND how neat it will be to experience raising both a boy and a girl! :)
Watching our kids grow up is very bittersweet. As mommies, our kids will always be our babies. Even when they're adults. And I still have my moments of tearfulness when I think about how much Jacob has grown. Time really does go by way too fast. I've found, though, that so far, this whole growing up thing has a lot of fun stuff to go along with it. Like the conversations you'll have with Bella, getting more & more glimpses of her personality, her sense of humor, and the kind of person she'll be, seeing her learn and accomplish new things, and watching her be a big sister to her new brother. The moments between the two of them will melt your heart. Guaranteed. :)
Sorry for the long comment, but your post just brought back memories. Just wanted to make sure you know that what you're feeling is normal and understood. :)
I am so blessed to be the mother of 2 children- Bella and Austin. While balancing motherhood with other aspects of life can be challenging at times, it is so rewarding! My purpose of this blog is to keep family and friends updated on our going-ons and also to document our daily lives to look back on one day. Enjoy!
"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankrolls smaller, homes happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten and the future worth living for." -Unknown
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Claire! I was already getting misty reading your post, and then that song just did me in. I sat there, bawling like a baby. And I'm not even pregnant! :)
I understand how you feel. Pregnancy obviously brings many emotions along with it, but when you add the feelings you experience about adding a second child, making your first a big sibling, the fact that this one turned out to be a boy and not the girl you were sure he was, and how grown up Bella is getting, it's a whole new emotional ballgame. I know you aren't disappointed about having a son. When I was pregnant with Alex, I thought he was going to be a girl. And after months of daydreaming about having a daughter, to find out it was another son was...a little shocking. And now he's my little baby boy who I can't imagine life without and who I love just as much as his big brother (you're right- a mommy's love does multiply). Letting go of a dream, even a daydream, is hard. You were sure you were having another girl, probably even thinking of names, imagining what she'd look like, and envisioning her in Bella's hand me downs. And now that's gone, and I think it's perfectly understandable and acceptable that you would need time to adjust to that. And if you haven't already, then you will. That little boy will bring you so much happiness. I should know. :) Plus, just think of all of the cute little baby boy clothes you can buy now AND how neat it will be to experience raising both a boy and a girl! :)
Watching our kids grow up is very bittersweet. As mommies, our kids will always be our babies. Even when they're adults. And I still have my moments of tearfulness when I think about how much Jacob has grown. Time really does go by way too fast. I've found, though, that so far, this whole growing up thing has a lot of fun stuff to go along with it. Like the conversations you'll have with Bella, getting more & more glimpses of her personality, her sense of humor, and the kind of person she'll be, seeing her learn and accomplish new things, and watching her be a big sister to her new brother. The moments between the two of them will melt your heart. Guaranteed. :)
Sorry for the long comment, but your post just brought back memories. Just wanted to make sure you know that what you're feeling is normal and understood. :)
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